Sheer numbness

Sheer numbness
No chaos and no inspiration,
No mist and no name,
No enigma and no obligation,
No will and no fame.

Found happiness in roses, ylang ylangs and lavenders' perfume,
now all I can smell is this nostalgic fume.
A fistful of the ocean, a spoon of raindrops, a portion of ice and a bunch of waterfall,
I've tasted it all.
Felt the wind, walked in the rain, talked to the stars, danced under the rainbows,
nowadays all I do is watch the enclosure of the shadows.

No grudges and no longings,
No dust and fears,
No lies and no pleadings,
No blade and no tears.

No word could have described my creativity,
today everything is gone except this tenacious insanity.
My world consisted of laughter, warmth and lightness,
these days it is being prevailed by darkness.
No need to wake me up from this endless sleep,
because I'll never sail away from this mess in that ship.

No blood and no pain,
No delusion and no indulgence,
No love and no vain,
No hatred and no deliverance.

Many kingdoms and many seasons passed me by,
all I kept waiting was for my saviour to pass by.
I've been breathing for so long, can take it no more,
seems like I've gone through these questions before.
I've seen and tried to grasp love through ages,
Alas I'm withered and dead since ages.

No bliss and no screams,
No word and no key,
No breaths and no dreams,
No you and no me.

For the one who means my everything,
has absolutely nothing,
yes nothing left to give,
so I'll turn away and leave.


[wrote that yesterday.. on the 9th of Oct 2007.. weh my own words.. do I really mean each word? maybe no or maybe yes!]
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# Posté le mercredi 10 octobre 2007 04:40

Modifié le mercredi 06 août 2008 03:44

Fairy tale v/s Reality

Fairy tale v/s Reality
Dans les contes de feés, apres avoir reçu le baiser du princesse, le vilain petit crapaud se transforme
en prince.

Dans la vie réelle, apres avoir reçu le baiser du vilain petit crapaud, la princesse se transforme
en crapaud.

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# Posté le jeudi 11 octobre 2007 07:30

Modifié le mercredi 06 août 2008 11:45

Weapons

weapons aren't always weapons
it all depends on whose hands it's in
it's not the weapon itself that is dangerous,
it's how you wield the weapon.
Weapons
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# Posté le samedi 13 octobre 2007 13:06

Modifié le dimanche 17 août 2008 11:19

Dяєαмs

Dяєαмs
Where am I?
This was the first thing I asked myself while slowly drifting into consciousness. I still had my eyes closed as I tried to answer my question. Nearby a beetle was buzzing, a bird was chirping oh it must be surely feeding its little ones, ants were tickling my bare feet, a light breeze was playing with my hair, a river was making its way slowly downwards, something was warming my cheek gently; it must be the sun and there was a strong smell of moist soil and grass mixed with something sweet which I could not identify. A lazy smile touched my lips, sighing happily I opened my eyes to find myself lying under the shade of a big cheery tree whose bloomed flowers were falling randomly on the wild grasses still covered with the morning dew.
Why am I here?
I rummaged through my mind to answer myself again while picking up a few flowers whose sweet fragrance was slowly filling the air and making the sight in front me look more heaven like. I was still drinking insatiably from the surrounding when realization dawned. I had been looking for something that day when I came across this tree.
What was it?
Something which meant a lot, something which was mine, something which I needed desperately, something extremely precious. But what was that something after all? Why was I enable to think properly? Why was I feeling apprehensive suddenly? Why was the feeling of content fading away? Why were my thoughts so blurry? Oh!
They would be angry when they find out that I had lost it, they would scream at me and laugh at my stupidity and then shut me again in that room where lightness was prohibited.
"No! I'll find it!"
As soon as I said these words, everything around me started changing! The heaven like place was being engulfed with a thick mist. They were coming. I could sense it. They were coming.
"I need to run. I can't hide. They are coming."
Run! Go!..
"No!"
I closed my eyes briefly and prayed silently yet I knew nothing could save me now. There was a ringing silence as if they were waiting for me to acknowledge their presence and as usual they enjoyed seeing me helpless. I struggled not to let my fears show and opened my eyes to glare at them. As usual the sight of them hit me like a physical blow; a feeling of awe mixed with disgust. No word could have described their beauty. They had such a perfectly carved figure, each one of them so beautiful, so cold and so inhuman. But I knew them, I knew what they were capable of and I knew how it always ended. Their outer beauty was just a mask for them to hide their hideous deeds.
"You've been a bad girl!", they said while laughing.
"You're always doing something bad"
"Yes bad, bad, bad!"
"Now see what happens to bad girls who never behave themselves well!"
There was a long silence and then the world around me started changing. The flowing river was now nothing but a large path covered with small patches of dried soil as if droughts have been dominating this area since decades. The sound of the chirping birds, the buzzing of the insects, the fluttering of the birds' wings and all the sound produced by the other inhabitants were now replaced by an eerie silence. The mist was growing colder and thicker as time was ticking by. A nauseating smell of decaying corpses was making the air unbreathable and stinging my eyes. The cherry tree was now a deciduous piece of bark. Heaps of ashes were amassed here and there. There was a strange red glow giving the impression that the place was cursed.
"Isn't it more beautiful now?" they asked, their eyes gleaming with satisfaction.
The beautiful cherry tree with its wonderful inhabitants were gone now. The sight in front of me was of utter desperation and doom.
"Why don't you understand that you can't touch anything"
"Everything you love will be burned, damned, broken and lost"
"Remember your chain!"
oh yes my chain! I do remember my chain. How could I forget?
I had been looking for my chain that day, the silver one.. the one with the heart shaped pendant and which I wore since always, I never asked myself why I treasure it so much but it had always been my friend. Now it was gone! I must had lost it somewhere but where? Yes, I must be bad that's why I lost it.
"Yes it's time to go now and you've been really bad today", their eyes now glinting with unmasked evil.
It was over. It was all over now. But the sight of this wonderful place would bring me solace in those lonely moments. I smiled, looked at the tree one last time, wiped my tears and braced myself to face my worst nightmare once again.
"You're cursed and you can't run away from your destiny!"


[Dunno how you classify it.. it's more like a story pfff actually it's a dream I had, dunno why but it's been worming under my skin for some time so I thought why not write it?.. Now I'm feeling kinda disappointed pfff this story was not meant finish like this mais enfin.. Coffee's side effects huh? they say that dreams surface our desires but how can I explain this dream? my destiny? Funny how I seem to cross this word now and then :S pffff]
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# Posté le samedi 13 octobre 2007 13:14

Modifié le vendredi 27 mars 2009 09:08

-.-~*'°¯°'*~-.,-,.-~*'°¯°'*~-.,-,.-~*'°¯°'*~-.- Une Histoire -.-~*'°¯°'*~-.,-,.-~*'°¯°'*~-.,-,.-~*'°¯°'*~-.-

-.-~*'°¯°'*~-.,-,.-~*'°¯°'*~-.,-,.-~*'°¯°'*~-.- Une Histoire -.-~*'°¯°'*~-.,-,.-~*'°¯°'*~-.,-,.-~*'°¯°'*~-.-
Une histoire qui tombe à l'eau
Quelques mots sur ton piano
C'est fini
C'est toute une vie
qui s'assombrit

Je l'ai vu dans ton regard
J'ai senti ton désespoir
A quoi bon
Faire semblant
D'y croire

Ne retiens pas tes larmes
Laisses aller ton chagrin
C'est une page qui se tourne
Et tu n'y peux rien

Ne retiens pas tes larmes
Pleurer ça fait du bien
Et si tu as de la peine
Tu sais que je t'aime
Je ne serais jamais loin

Tu t'accroches à ton passé
Comme si tout s'était figé
Aujourd'hui
Il faut s'aider
Abandonner

La douleur qui s'installe
Cette absence qui fait si mal
N'aie pas peur
Écoutes ton coeur

Ne retiens pas tes larmes
Laisse aller ton chagrin
Si tu as de la peine
Souviens-toi que je t'aime
Je ne serais jamais loin

[C'etait 'Ne retiens pas tes larmes' par Amel Bent.. normally I don't listen these types of music mais j'aime bien les paroles.]
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# Posté le samedi 20 octobre 2007 10:03

Modifié le mercredi 06 août 2008 11:49